Whew, its been a while!

I almost forgot about this thing! I need to just take more time to stop and smell the roses... and blog!
Anyway...
Many many moons ago, when my Grams was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes, she was put on a specific diet using food exchanges. I went on this diet with her and I lost quite a bit of weight. It worked, I ate healthy and in return I became healthier. I felt good!

I need to do this again. Lately I have come to accept myself as a big girl. I am starting to get to the point where I honestly dont care what other people think, and dammit I am beautiful! But, alas, I still want to loose the weight. But I dont want to do it for looks. I dont want to do it for other people that have to look at me. I want to do it to be healthy. As of right now I dont like how I feel. I feel unhealthy. No.... really, most days, I just flat out feel like crap. So I think now is the time that I have to just force myself to bring forth the will power to stop eating junk and eat better.

Tonight I went online and I calculated what my ideal weight should be for my height and weight. My goal is to get myself down to 150lbs. That's 125 lbs (*gasp!*) that I need to loose. I dont plan to try and loose it in a matter of just months, like I did ages ago when I did this with Grams. I want to do it slow and healthy. So, based on my goal and other factors, I am going to go on 1,800 calories a day. I printed up a daily breakdown of the exchanges I can eat for each meal. I also printed up the exchange list. So as of Friday... A.K.A. payday.... I am going to go shopping and get the proper food for this diet... no, not diet! This new way of life! I am going to do this dammit, and I am going to live healthy!